Hesitant Surrender

by George Klassen

I’ll take salvation but I don’t like surrender

Of my independence I’m a passionate defender

On the bed of self-sufficiency I will rest in hope defined by me

So I’ll take salvation but don’t ask surrender

A little religion to follow salvation

It maintains respect in all my human relations

But I’ll be in charge of security and I’ll do what I think will meet my need

A little religion to follow salvation

So I stay very busy trying hard to be free

Go to church for my image spend my money on me

Fill my leisure with noise buying all kinds of toys

Cause silence, silence seems to scream where’s the joy

What is it in silence that invades my existence

Could it be God is trying to break through the pretence

Of the noise I keep surrounding me cause silence has become my enemy

Could it be God is trying to get my attention

So I stay very busy trying hard to be free

Go to church for my image spend my money on me

Fill my leisure with noise buying all kinds of toys

Cause silence, silence seems to scream where’s the joy

I’ll take salvation but I’m not sure of surrender

Of my independence I’m a P-Passionate defender

But the bed of self-sufficiency has lately stolen rest from me

If I move toward surrender will I find peace I wonder

Do You Love Me

Why do I even bother?

When the walls say more than you do

At least I’m not disappointed by their silence

I believe that you are listening

But it seems you don’t like talking

Or is my life so loud I just can’t hear you

Maybe someone more perceptive can hear your voice so clear

It wouldn’t be hard to find someone more holy

But unfulfilled desires have got me drowning in my tears

Now all I want to know is: do you love me

I know they aren’t pretty

The words that I am saying

Not the way I learned to pray in Sunday School

But I’ve never been so honest

And I’m so sick and tired of being pious

Counterfeit expressions substance of hell’s fuel

But it seems that when I’m more forthright your voice becomes more clear

What is it that you’ve been trying to tell me

And those unfulfilled desires well they’ve made me bend my ear

Could it be I hear you saying that you love me

I’m beginning to believe that you love me

You see so clearly

You see so clearly what I discern dimly

Seeing as I do through this dark colored glass

In all my confusion I plead for your mercy

So I can worship the you I can’t grasp

Your greatness beyond me your plan supercedes

What I often call goodness is temporary

When your way seems malicious may I trust that its kindness

Disguised as it is in divine mystery

So I’ll worship you without understanding

All that you have in store

I’ll praise your name for you are faithful

And you will lead me home

You’ve said the righteous shall live by faith

It’s obvious now that there’s no other way

Your dreams are to high for us to imagine

In your strength we’ll be patient waiting for the new day

So we’ll worship you without understanding

all that you have in store

We’ll praise your name for you are faithful

and you will lead us home

You’ve promised to lead us home

We believe that you’ll lead us home